Does life have any meaning?
Is there a reason to be alive,
Perhaps you have a loved one,
Perhaps you have some drive.
Can you see the joy around you,
Or is it all just pain,
Perhaps it's just the way you view it,
Perhaps you feel insane.
Whether one is right the other wrong,
It's all about perspective,
Are you able to see beyond,
And not be so selective.
No one can see the world like me,
I am the one unique to me,
I'm not the leaf I am the tree,
A tree... Alone... in a forest full of trees
My father has Alzheimer's disease; he is living in a care home only 1 mile from where I live. Nevertheless, I have not been able to see him since March. He has an unusual form of dementia, where he has lost both short and long term memory. He lives for the day, the moment, and never remembers anything else. He is also very tactile, whenever, my mother or I went to see him, he would love a hug and want to hold our hand. It was as if he might not remember who we are but something inside him, felt who we are. Every time we left him in the home, my mother would become so upset, she feels guilty that at 74 with back issues, she is unable to look after him. I try to tell her he is in the best place. I try to be pragmatic and say he seems happy, because of living in the moment. Telling her this did help, until Covid-19, changed the world. Since then, we have not been able to see him.
The care home gave us a decision in the summer, we could see him, but through a glass window, without letting him touch us in any way. He is not capable of remembering as it is now an automatic action to try and hug my mother. My father had the virus through the summer; he was fine apart from a lump on his leg. They said, and please remember my father is in a good care home with an excellent reputation, that seeing my father through glass would cause emotional issues for both my parents and that it may confuse him and upset his daily schedule. My mother reluctantly agreed to this, as she has diabetes and part of the high-risk group.
Until you have to experience a family member with Alzheimer's disease, you cannot understand how it affects the whole family. It tears me apart, slowly seeing my dad lose his mind, losing day by day, a small part of his consciousness, the part that is him. He is unable to speak now and can only make hand signals and smile. I like to think he is happy inside, living the moment by moment experience, but who knows as he cannot tell me.
This thought torments me.
How long will it be before my mother can see her husband again?
My mother worries that either of them may die without seeing each other.
Even though the world pretends to know about Covid-19, I do not think they do. Governments and scientists act as if they are in control of the situation; however, the evidence does not show this. It seems like they are trying to put the tail on a donkey while blindfolded, and the donkey will not keep still.
The world cannot continue like this. Humanity is already falling apart, and it makes no sense why governments continue their idiotic strategies. The only reason that makes sense is they have no clue how to stop it, or what it is or what causes the various reactions to it. My uncle also in a care home, my mother's brother, he had Covid-19 around the same time as my father. My uncle had recently recovered from cancer and pneumonia and yet only had a very mild case. He was feeling tired for a week, and that is it. How do both my father and my uncle survive with comorbidities? My uncle still had cancer last November, and he had pneumonia in early 2020.
Just because the governments and scientists cannot figure out what is causing some unfortunate soles to die should not destroy the lives of everyone else. We do not stop the world every winter for flu or any of the other deadly diseases that cause massive death in humans.
The world now knows lockdowns do not work, so why continue? It is destroying small businesses, retail stores, bars, clubs, pubs, restaurants and social activity.
If this continues for much longer, it will change the world forever, if it has not done this already.
One last thing to add, how many cases of the flu, using covid style testing of everyone, do you think we would find?
We have never tested flu, yet it kills hundreds of thousands every winter.
The similarities and differences are something to ponder.
The Biggest blockbuster of the year opening on Tuesday in the United States and Wednesday in Europe. The American General Election - TRUMP 2 - Biden v Trump Civil War.
Yes, it could be a Marvel movie spectacular, only instead of Captain America and Iron Man, we have The Dementia Liar, vs The Blonde Crazy Wild Man.
I know things are not much better in the UK, if at all, but how much lower can America go? I remember when everyone in the UK, laughed when they elected an actor as President, one that deceived the US so much they voted him the Greatest American. Oh, of all the genuinely great Americans, they voted for a going senile puppet. Then there was Clinton, a devious sexual predator with ties to one of the worst paedophiles in American history and after Clinton was George W Bush, probably the dumbest President ever. Bush led America through 911 and started a war in Iraq, and illegal war, where millions of people died, as well as thousands of American Troops. The war started to make plenty of money and avenge his father. His party was responsible for the 17 years fighting in Afghanistan, and the formation of ISIS, mainly due to destroying Iraq's infrastructure. Sanity resumed of was resumed in a 'Wizard of Oz' way, when Obama pretended to represent change when doing nothing to change the dominance of Wall Street, especially after the 2008 crash.
Is it not weird that there are so many terrible events as US presidents change. Obama, went to Michigan, to the town of Flint and pretended to drink the most toxic water that has caused untold health issues for Americans. He did not represent the people; he represented his wealthy friends and the Republican Governor.
Unfortunately, the President to change America for the better was so bad, American's were so sick, they voted for Donald Trump, at reality TV host, instead of Medusa, otherwise known as Hillary Clinton.
American's after years of being fed bullshit, and never getting free healthcare like the rest of the western world, as well as disgraceful insurance companies and big pharma ripping off Americans for medical bills and medicines. Americans do not realise most western countries give between 4 and 8 weeks paid leave a year(vacations in the US) which lowest-paid do not receive. The biggest lie is the lie that taxation through income is terrible when without realising American's get taxed in many other ways, and low-income tax only helps the wealthy. It does not help the poor at all, in fact, now I think about it, the biggest lie the establishment tells American's is that everyone has that chance to become successful, or rich, or powerful.
The wealthy only help themselves or people who are like themselves; they do not give a shit about 75% of Americans, possibly more.
Nevertheless, the bullshit cycle continues when the Democrats had a chance to vote for someone who gave a shit about them. The DNC and Obama corraled the fakes candidates and allowed someone who should be in a care home to run as President of the most powerful country in the world.
I know I seem to be picking on America here, but we are all affected by America and who they vote for in their general elections. I know it's the same in most countries; very few populations realise what harm they are doing when they vote for a particular candidate, and this is the reason 'Popular Part Politics' does not work.
I honestly thought it could not get any worse after W Bush, but he seems normal compared to this years election candidates. We are all in the middle of a major crisis in Covid, does that make three major disasters near the beginning of new Presidents reign. It must be murder having to go to a voting station stand in a queue for hours while being abused by the other sides more extremist followers, only to look at the ballot and thinking...
Holy Fucking Shit!!!!
Life is fading away from me,
I can see it in the distance,
As it moves further and further,
Engulfed in a dark fog,
I try, oh I try,
Yet never get any closer,
It's always in vain,
I suffer extreme pain,
Both physical and mental,
Trapped in quicksand,
Perhaps I am damned,
Forever for all eternity,
I wish to end the misery,
But I know I can't,
And the can't makes it worse,
I'll not survive much longer,
Then my life my force will be gone,
I just don't know how to be strong,
Anymore!
I have a lot of empathy for the 100 million Americans who do not want Trump or Biden. What a choice, it's like deciding whether to be 'burned at the stake', or 'hung drawn and quartered'. In the UK we had a similar situation, last year between indecisive Corbyn or lazy good for nothing Johnson.
Everyone knows how bad Trump is; he is so bad that most of his crimes are now just forgotten or even excused. Biden also has plenty of skeletons in his closet and a junkie son who is paid by foreign governments (Russia and China have been mentioned in the news) just because he is Bidens, son.
The other major issue is their age, will they last another term? We have seen how quickly hair goes from ordinary to grey, what happens when they are grey already?
The VP Candidates are not better in any way. Kamala Harris, seems like a cross between a female Damien the Antichrist, from The Final Conflict, as well as Claire Hale Underwood from House of Cards. Mike Pence acts like a zombie risen from the dead mixed with a closet religious fanatic who regularly whips his back for having to deal with Trump every day.
This election is an example of a desperate election, trying to elect a man with dementia who will likely die from the stress not long after being inaugurated because the guy the Democrats wanted most was a Democratic Socialist. We cannot have socialism seeping into American politics. Barak Obama forced all candidates to drop out in favour of a senile old man. What does that say about Obama and his legacy?
Unfortunately, America needs Trump to win again, and perhaps then they can overhaul the whole election process, allow another party to join the Dems and Reps. Maybe the new party will be made up of the representatives who give a damn about the people, and give them what they need instead of what big business wants.
However, just like my Dallas Cowboys, being pragmatic, having sanity and common sense is a commodity that is too expensive for governments around the world. What is it going to take to change them?
I know I have said WWW3 is not far away from going hot; nevertheless, it would be nice if for once that we did not need a war to change the way things work internationally.
Sorry, 100 million, I feel your pain, maybe next time, will they learn, nonetheless, as with Dallas I somehow doubt it.
Watching the Cowboys at the moment is like being shot in the gut, the pain never ends, as you bleed out. We are crap in every position apart from receiver and Aldon Smith. Dallas now has an OLine I think I could breakthrough. There is no point in discussing the game as it was terrible from the beginning to the end. I could only bear the game until half time, and that was it for me.
Jerry says he is not going to sell anyone he's a buying owner. Why? What is the point in wasting draft picks because we will overpay for them as other teams know our situation. Rebuild Jerry, use all that football insight gained over 25 years of total control and don't waste draft picks on players that might be good be are likely not to make any difference. I saw an article mentioning Quinnen Williams as a possible trade, now perhaps a second for him would be a good deal, but the Jets won't trade for a second they will want more. The Jets were unlucky yesterday, and so was Cincinnati, I suppose if the Jets want first pick in the draft, they may trade him for a third because let's face it, Dallas seems odds for the first pick, which is a no brainer we get Lawrence. One does not pass up generational talent. Once we have Lawrence we have many opportunities, we can keep Dak to help Lawrence for a year. However, Dallas needs to get rid of the expensive dead wood, Zeke has shown he is no Barry Sanders or Emmitt Smith. He needs a great OL to perform at his best. Trade him for a second to a team that needs a great running back. Get rid of Tank, and unfortunately, we need to trade Amari Cooper as well. The amount, money saved, will hopefully get players with heart. What has Zeke or Tank done since getting their big contract - nothing, or not what their massive salaries demand? Pollard is a good enough running back. I have no clue about how American football works, but I am a pragmatist, I'm sure there are many out there that want to see Jerry trade for someone for too many drafts picks so we can finish 5-11. Then we can make the playoffs and then God will say to Jerry - with this team I thee grant massive luck, and you will do something never done before in football history. And then Jerry will wake up for his dream and have to face reality. The team is crap; the coaches are crap, the front office is crap, the Dallas Cowboys organisation the richest sports team in the world are so bad as to make bad too good for them. If Jerry were just the owner and not the GM, he would have sacked all of them by now.
Stop thinking of yourself Jerry, and think of the millions of fans and billions of dollars Dallas makes for you, it will start to dry up as young kids will be Patriots fans and not Dallas fans. Why would any kid want to support the present Cowboys team?
Oh, if only that was true. I should have added a please in there but who writes realistic headlines these days. Now that it seems likely though not confirmed that Williams new owners would prefer cash over class. George Russell might be without a drive next year. One of the best up and coming drivers, perhaps the best with Verstappen and Leclerc will have to spend a year in the test seat. I always believe in the best getting the best seats, keeping Bottas seems utterly crazy. In a saner world, Bottas would not be driving for Mercedes; he would be with a mid-row team where his talent would be high. He could shine against the likes of Perez, Albon, Norris, Sainz, and Vettel and the rest of them in mid-table hell. Then we could see a proper battle for the title between Lewis and George. Lewis has his record for the number of wins and will equal Schumacher with seven world titles by the end of the season. Hamilton destroyed Bottas by 25 seconds today, so what is the point of this continuing. I love Lewis Hamilton as a driver, and I think he is a far better person than some give him credit, but Bottas seems to me to be like one of Schumacher's lackeys, there to come second and pick up the odd win. No disrespect to Bottas he is a good driver, and would probably dominate in slower cars. Still, surely Mercedes must realise having him there another season for him to be humiliated further which will happen is ludicrous. Russell will perhaps take his time to adjust, but adjust he will, and he will give a least a battle to Hamilton and not just be some pathetic loser making excuses as Bottas does race in race out.
The only reason I can think that Merc would not change drivers is for ethical reasons because unlike others team like Williams, they will not get rid of a driver under contract. Nevertheless, since Bottas signed his contract, he is regressing as Lewis humiliates him further. Seeing Bottas' reaction after being handed a victory in Russia was pathetic.
For argument's sake, Merc decides they are going to honour their 2021 contract with Bottas and Williams do not honour theirs with Russell. What does Russell do then? What should happen is the new Aston Martin team with Mercedes engines should remove their useless nepotistic driver Stoll and put Russell there. Stroll is an embarrassment; first, he has kept his position over the more talented Perez, then he causes accidents and makes stupid mistakes nearly every weekend. His father must love him and love wasting hundreds of millions on him because Lance Stroll does not deserve his seat in Formula 1. Neither does his compatriot Latifi another multimillionaire driver, when are the F1 owner's Liberty Media going to grow some balls and stop this from happening. How many great drivers never get a chance in F1? Many due to a wealthy asshole paying for the lesser driver to be there instead? Latifi has never out-qualified Russell. Stroll has a terrible qualifying record in F1, and he has been responsible for Ocon losing his seat and having to sit out a year. (which has not helped Ocon one bit). Now he is responsible for Perez losing his seat, it's disgraceful. Is he going to be there to be a Bottas for Vettel next season? Vettel won't allow Stroll to have preferential treatment as has happened at Ferrari with Leclerc? What happens to Stroll when daddy gets bored and does not want to support his son's lacklustre career. I know I sound harsh, I am sure Latifi and Stroll and perfectly lovely people, but they are not F1 drivers, and I think it is a poor show that they take the places of better drivers. Ocon has not been the same since he had to leave for a year as a test driver, what will this do to Russell. How do drivers like Stroll and Latifi live with themselves, I could not stay doing a job I knew I only had because my father was the wealthy owner, but that is how the wealthy work, they don't care about the little guy.
If Lawrence Stroll were a decent human, he would make his son have a face-off with Russell, and the best driver gets the Aston Martin seat for next year, and Stroll would have his seat back for 2022.
I will end by saying it will be a travesty if Russell has to miss a season of F1. Mainly due to Mercedes being too ethical to replace Bottas, but not ethical enough for Williams to keep Russell, and for lesser drivers getting drives with Mercedes engines. Non-Mercedes engine cars not even having a chance to give Russell a seat mainly because they would want a longer than one year deal.
It all stinks.
