Monday, 28 January 2013


Time passes, the endless stream going nowhere,

Dreams take hold exploring new horizons,

We walk a path, a path in blindness and confusion,

Will we ever see the light again?


Time moves in all directions at once,

Uncontrollable and chaotic, it explodes out everywhere,

Everything all knowing, existing in purity,

The light is there to see yet still we do not see it.


Why can we not see the light?

Where does it hide, perhaps inside the mind?

Flickering delicately between our synapses,

Unable to break free to show us the way.


Consider the enormity of the situation,

The cataclysmic disorder that invades most minds,

No wonder we cannot see,

We lack the belief to understand, we are condemned.


There are no answers to this quest,

Decisions are meaningless, to the end,

A yearning to know will not bear fruit,

For we are doomed, trapped in a darkened room.

What is the Universe?

It has always fascinated me, always made me wonder, what is the universe?  Does it have a purpose?  How big is it?  Why do we exist?

Why do we exist? 

Scientists give us a very simple answer to this question we exist because of evolution.  By some freak chance, we the humans of planet Earth, alive today, have the highest honour the universe can bestow - intelligence and self-awareness.  We know we exist; we have the intellect to understand how we biologically came into being.  In my demented mind, I see a problem, a niggling itch that will not go away.  If we have self-awareness and it is part of us however small, that tiny part of our sub-conscious brain.  Why do many of us want to have a reason for having this great gift?  In so many different ways, whether we realise it or not we crave an answer.  Why do we exist?  Is there a purpose to our existence?  And if there is, what is it?

If there is no answer to this question, and the non-answer is we do not have a purpose, we do not have a reason to exist; we are only participating in the great game of the universe.  We are only the newest version, fresh off the factory floor, moving the process onwards.  If that is the case, then it is a curse to be self-aware.  It is a devil and a cruel trick, to have this ability to think beyond the realms of our planet, to break free from the shackles of stupidity, inanity, the leave behind the instinctive mindlessness of not knowing.  If we have this amazing ability to see beyond, then it gives reason to believe that in fact, we do have a purpose, we do have a reason to exist, the problem is we have not figured out what that purpose is. 

We are a tiny blip in the fabric of the universe; we are blind to what the universe is and what its purpose is.  It makes sense that if we exist and have a purpose to exist then the universe as well must have a purpose and in its entirety exist for a reason.  How can we ever know this?  We are so small and insignificant, not even noticeable on our tiny planet Earth.  Are we the beginning of something great, something special, or are we just another freakish, evolutionary, anomaly.  Will we in our own time go out like the flame of a candle, slowly burning down into insignificance. 

This is the curse of self-awareness, because if we look at our planet, and the human population most of us do not do something we are proud of, we do not do something with purpose.  Yet inside our minds are these thoughts, deep down for some hidden unknown, and for others they are there present, gnawing away.  They take us in many ways, religious, spiritual, scientific, some just have no concept of what it is they feel, they know yet do not know, but it is there inside us.  Why is it there?  We feel the need to want to understand these things, want answers to these questions.

How does a trillion, trillion trillion, or whatever the amount is, of particles and energy, combine together to create our brains.  We have an incredibly complex biological super computer, created through evolution by pure chance.  It happened here, we know it did because we are alive to experience it, to enjoy its amazing abilities.  For the majority humans on this planet, our brains and minds are underused, they are severely controlled, and curtailed from expression and comprehension of self-awareness.  By some freak chance, we are all susceptible to petty simplistic delusions that stop us from doing what we should be doing.  Most minds are caged, unable to break free from the shackles of mediocrity, and they are so underused to become automatons, following strict procedures, fearful of change and freedom of expression.  We are seven billion minds, we are all connected, together we are one, we were born from the same mother, we feel each other’s pain, we feel all the suffering, collectively we are a mess, a shambles, a disgrace.

Unfortunately, we are the self-aware experiment that went wrong, we have not understood the universe, how it works, and how it feels.  We do not move with the flow towards the right path; we are chaotic and uncontrollable; we are a catastrophe.  Our minds do not work in unison with our planet and our universe, we will be like a giant star, we will burn bright and large for a short time before we use up all our energy and then we will supernova out of existence.

Sad really, we have so much potential, yet it is wasted.

Thursday, 17 January 2013

General Relativity, Dark Matter and Galaxies

Everyone must know the description of how gravity works, originally formulated by Newton and updated by Einstein.  Whenever you watch a science doc talking about gravity they always show a heavy ball in the middle of a stretched piece of rubber or something similar; then someone rolls the smaller ball in a straight line towards the heavy object and the smaller ball curves around the larger ball, simulating an orbiting pattern.  Einstein called this space-time, and said heavy objects cause the space to curve which cause an object that is moving in a straight direction to curve around the heavier object.  Simple and amazing when you think about it further.  They have now proved it so by showing light from distant stars through gravitational lensing.  The dark matter curves space-time and we see the light behind, this is how they know dark matter exists.

However, this causes a problem as I see it.  Does dark matter exist all around us?  I have read it might.  I have watched astronomy docs where they mention this, but if this is the case how does the description of gravity formulated by Einstein work on a galaxy level or a universal level.  Surely, such a simplistic concept falls apart.  Think about it, dark matter holds the galaxy together like some kind of super heavy glue, binding the normal matter in place so that the galaxy spins evenly (meaning the stars all orbit the galaxy at the same speed, the inner stars and the outer).  Yet it is not strong enough to keep planets orbiting a star evenly.  I presume, in fact it must be true that dark matter clumps together in the same way normal matter does, yet it manages to clump together in such a way that the whole galaxy and every galaxy manages to spin evenly, each star in every galaxy spinning at a steady rate equal to the other stars.  How convenient.

There must be more to this even spin cycle for want of a better expression.  It cannot just be the density of dark matter; it must be the distribution of dark matter, because there has to be more dark matter near the outer limits of the galaxy, than at the centre.

Now all of this brings me back to the diagram they use to show Einstein’s theory of general relativity and the large ball on the stretched rubber.  This diagram does not work on a galaxy level; it only works at a star system level, the galaxy level is more like the bike going around the wall of death.  Perhaps a barrier of some kind stops the galaxies flying apart, or whatever, something other than dark matter’s density.  Perhaps there is a connection between the black hole at the centre, and the edge of the galaxy.  It makes me think of the doc I watched where they showed a form of energy device called the Torus, picture below.  Now if you think of a galaxy like that then to me at least it starts to make more sense.  You can then cut the Torus in half, and create a kind of ying and yang of energy flowing from one side of the positive galaxy say our side, through to the negative or the other side.  The energy flows constantly and we perceive it as dark matter that creates a wall or some kind of an invisible barrier, as we would perceive it in our reality.  This in turn keeps the galaxy from flying apart.

Obviously, we cannot see this happening as it probably is happing at speeds beyond the speed of light, hence why we cannot see it.  Of course, it seems so obvious that is why we cannot see dark matter, or dark energy, they travel beyond the speed of light.  Perhaps I am letting my imagination get the better of me but hey, anything is possible.

Whilst looking for an image of the Torus I found a quotation, it is from the doc I saw the Torus mentioned in, the doc called Thrive and is definitely worth a watch.  The quotation does seem to make sense.

“Looking back on almost half a century of research, including thousands of books, films, interviews with experts from diverse fields, if I were to pick one common denominator to all the facets of my quest, it would be the TORUS, the fundamental energy pattern that invites our alignment at every level of our existence for us to survive and thrive.”

Foster Gamble

I would have never seen a connection if I had not been confused by the idea of dark matter as something that is all around us and the diagram of Einstein’s description of gravity.  Perhaps there is no connection, but what if there is, and beyond our visual limits of reality the galaxy and the Universe is a mirror and we are seeing only one half and the black hole is the energy conduit, that forces energy we call dark matter from one side of the mirror to the other.

Saturday, 5 January 2013

Wedding Nightmare

I had a dream, a dream, a dream today,

I dreamt it was my wedding day,

It started in a happy state,

The King and Queen were there to see my fate,

I danced the waltz with my new bride,

I felt as if I could not hide,

Yet I was unable to notice her,

For she was only a glimmering blur,

I noticed people from my past,

The ones I disliked, or friendships that did not last,

And then my bride did disappear,

 I was alone with all my fears,

I stood inside the large hotel,

I wondered who would pay the bill,

Glasses, plates, and confetti,

In the darkened hall now so empty,

I wondered if it was all a mistake,

And if I tried hard I would wake,

For something hit me as I worried,

Whom on this planet had I just married?